I was not drunk on alcohol, but on success and ego: Ram Gopal Varma
Chennai: Director Ram Gopal Varma's film 'Satya' was recently re-released in theatres. The director shared an emotional note on social media and revealed that he was not under the influence of alcohol, but of his success and ego. He realized this after watching 'Satya' after 27 years.
Ram Gopal Varma, who is active on social media, shared a post on his X handle, in which he looked emotional.
Sharing the post, he wrote, “I was so emotional after seeing 'Satya' after 27 years that I started crying and I was not caring whether anyone would watch it or not. The tears were not just for the film, but for what happened after.”
He said, “Making a film is like giving birth to a child born out of the throes of passion, without knowing what kind of child I am giving birth to. This is because a film is made in pieces, without knowing when it will be ready. During production, the focus is on what others are saying about it and then whether it's a hit or not, we start thinking about the next story.”
Ram Gopal Varma further wrote, “Until two days ago, I had considered it another step in my aimless journey and ignored the countless inspirations it inspired. Coming back to the hotel after the screening of Satya, sitting in the dark, I couldn't understand why, despite my so-called intelligence, I didn't make this film a benchmark for whatever I should do in the future. I also realized that I didn't just cry because of the tragedy that happened in that movie, but I also cried out of happiness for that version of me. I also cried with the guilt of betraying all those who had trusted me because of 'Satya'.”
The director further wrote, “I was not drunk, but drunk on my success and my ego, however, I did not realize it till two days ago. The light of 'Rangeela' and 'Satya' blinded me.” And I got lost in making films that were useless in showcasing my technical wizardry or many other things. I forgot a simple and common truth that technology can elevate a given subject, but not further it. Can take.”
Ram Gopal Varma, while admitting that some of his later films may have been successful, but none of them had the honesty and integrity that 'Satya' had, adding, “My brilliant vision helped me to do something new in cinema. It also blinded me from the value of my work and I became that man running towards the sky, who forgot to look at the garden planted beneath his feet and this is what came to my dignity. It became the reason for the decline.”
The director further said, “I can no longer improve on what I have done. But I had promised myself two nights ago, wiping my tears, that from now on, whatever film I make, I will make it with the respect for which I initially wanted to become a director. I will never be able to make a film like 'Satya' again, but not even intending to do so is an unforgivable crime against cinema. I don't mean that I should keep making films like 'Satya', but regardless of genre or theme, at least it should have the honesty of 'Satya'.”
“I wish I could go back in time and make it a cardinal rule for myself that before making any film, 'Satya' should be watched once again. If I had followed that rule, I'm sure I wouldn't have made 90 percent of the films I've made since then.”
Ram Gopal Varma ended the post saying, “Finally, now I have made a promise to myself that whatever little time I have left in my life, I want to spend it honestly and make something like 'Satya' and I swear by this truth as 'True'.”
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